Jessi Roos

Drunk Travis quotes #1

“You want to drive to Taco Bell?  I give you cheeseburger.”

“I’m an anteater.  I’ll walk up to an anthill and eat the queen ant……. the queen ant is dead.  And we’re just gonna fuck.  Jessi and I are gonna fuck.”

“I don’t like clingy girls, unless they’re clinging so close that they’re DTF.  If they’re that, it’s okay.”

“Jessi!  Jessi, come sit in my lap.  I know you’re mad because I hung up on you.  Tell what I have to do to make you love me again.  I’ll do AAAAANNYYTHING!  I’ve been waiting for you all night!”

Yeeaah.  It’s a very entertaining night, to say the least.

Torn.

Inside out, upside down, twisting beside myself

Stop that now, ‘cause you and I were never meant to meet

I think you’d better leave

It’s not safe in here

I feel a weakness coming on

Alright then,

I could keep your number for a rainy day

That’s where this ends

No mistakes, no misbehaving

I was doing so well

Could we just be friends?

I feel a weakness coming on

It’s not meant to be like this,

Not what I planned at all

I don’t want to feel like this

No, it’s not meant to be like this

Not what I planned at all

I don’t want to feel like this,

So that makes it all your fault

Inside out, upside down, twisting beside myself

Stop that now, you’re as close as it gets without touching me

Oh, now don’t make it harder than it already is

I feel a weakness coming on

Big trouble, losing control

Primary resistance at a critical low

On the double, gotta get a hold

Point of no return, one second to go

No response on any level,

Red alert, this vessel’s under seige

Total overload, all systems down, they’ve got control

There’s no way out

We are surrounded

Give in, give in, and relish every minute of it

It’s not meant to be like this,

Not what I planned at all

I don’t want to feel like this

No, it’s not meant to be like this

It’s just what I don’t need

Why make me feel like this?

It’s definitely all your fault

The Walk — Imogen Heap

I miss my boys.

I talk to Andy every day, at least a little, and I’m going to see him soon.  But I’m afraid it’s not going to be enough and I’ll just be sad again later.  I know that’s not a good way to think about it because I might not have as much fun as I should.

I haven’t talked to Casey more than…three times since he moved.  I feel like we forgot about each other, like the friendship is on hold.  Or like it’s not as important as it used to be.

I don’t know how long I’ll be able to do this without breaking down.  Things are so different without them.  I’m having fun, but I don’t have time for anyone or anything that isn’t scheduled into my week.  They seem to be really busy too, and it’s hard to find time to really talk.

I’m doing things that I never thought I’d get into this soon.  And although I’m really enjoying it, it’s too much.  I think I’m trying my hardest to distract myself from what I’ve lost.

Not to mention the fact that I haven’t had a playdate with anyone I don’t live with, in a LONG time.

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“I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in.  I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones that I started looking for a warning sign, when the truth is I miss you.”

Warning Sign — Coldplay

I'm such an asshole.

I can’t believe myself.

Sick.

After having a very frustrating week at Vacation Bible School, I think the kids got me sick.

I waited all day yesterday to throw up, quite miserably.  And uh…everyone says that it was the little kids who started it.  Most likely.

Yay.

New house.

Just moved today.  Everything went well, and Jenni and I still have a lot of boxes.  However, it’s getting pretty comfy already.

It’s weird being in a new place, but I like it. Nathaniel and Aly are wonderful, and so far our room arrangement seems to be a good thing. :]

I won’t have my mom calling me and asking where I am late at night now.  It’s going to be new and strange.  I might even miss that a little.

I’m gonna have a lot of things to get used to.  I’m sure updates will come later.

The future.

I can’t figure out why, but I suddenly feel overwhelmed.

I’m starting to feel so many things that I’m used to slipping away from me.

It’s hard to say how much longer we will all keep our jobs at Cold Stone.  Conrad hired 5 new people while we were on choir tour, and is giving them all of the available hours.  It makes it seem like he’s preparing to get rid of us, or something.  Next year I will need a job to be able to afford living away from home, and that scares me.  We went and looked at Nathaniel’s new house today, and it’s absolutely beautiful, but I don’t know if I will realistically be able to come up with everything I need for each month.  It’ll probably be easier for me than some others, because my parents have offered to help me pay for rent, but if I don’t have a job, I will have no gas or food.

I’m trying to deal with the fact that Andrew and Casey are leaving at the end of the summer.  I don’t want them to be away from me, and that idea is so hard to grasp.  I have planned out all of the breaks from school, when they could come back home, but I’m not sure that’s enough.  I guess it will have to be.  I just hope I can be strong.

My dog is near invincible, and she always pulls through, but lately she’s been in a funk and not herself.  I don’t know if she’ll come out of it, and I don’t want to lose her.  I’m so worried about it that I don’t want to leave for DisneyWorld next week.  My mom just told me to mentally prepare for Ashley to not be around much longer.  I’m trying to figure out whether it’s better to prepare for it now, or pretend like it’s not happening until that day comes.

“All I find are souvenirs from better times, before the gleam of your tail lights fading east - to find yourself a better life.”

Title and Registration — Death Cab for Cutie

The grossest thing I have ever had to discover.

As many of you know, I am deathly afraid of spiders, and insects in general.  So begins my epic and terrible story.

Tonight I was getting ready for bed and a giant moth flew into my room as I flipped off all the other lights in the house.  I thought, no big deal, I’ll turn off my lights, turn on the bathroom light, and lure it away.  Simple enough.  I started to do that, but my first mistake was that I left my lamp on, and before I could get to it, the moth had been drawn to it and then fell down behind my nightstand next to my bed. So…pretty awesome so far.

I waited for it to emerge from the dark between my nightstand and the wall, and it never came back out.  Very bravely, I lifted the nightstand and pulled it forward to look for the giant-ass moth.  At this point I looked down to see, low and behold, a disgusting mangle of cobwebs and an enormous octopus of a spider attached to it.

There was no way I was going to sleep, knowing that an octopus was waiting right next to my head, and could strike at any moment. Naturally, the first solution I came up with was to get my vaccuum (also, my mom and brother had been sleeping the entire time. I decided that they would have to get over it, should they awake to the sound of me fighting this horrifying battle).  I got it from the closet, set it up carefully, stood on my bed and got ready to attack.  Out of nowhere, the moth-bat flew into my face and then continued up into my ceiling light, which was now turned on and shining brightly.  It stirred up unholy amounts of dust and then fell to the floor.

Apparently this particular moth suffered from severe narcolepsy.  That’s my only logical explanation for it’s behavior.

I sucked up the moth with my vaccuum and then got ready for the nightstand once again.  I got all the cobwebs and the spider dropped down and almost got away.  But damnit, I got that spider, and my honor.

I also picked up a case of mechanical pencil lead on accident, and that really didn’t agree with the vaccuum tubing, so…I’m going to need to find a way to explain all of this to my mom in the morning.

By the way, neither of them ever woke up to the sound of the vaccuum.  It was quite a miracle.

And long story short, I’m cleaning my entire room tomorrow and getting rid of all cobwebs and insects.  I’m going to have a hard time sleeping tonight.

“I braved treacherous streets, and kids strung out on homemade speed.  And we shared a bed in which I could not sleep at all.”

Crooked Teeth — Death Cab for Cutie